Do I ... ?

Kadang2 tertanya juga,

'Do him happy with me?'
'Do I ready to be something to someone?'
'Do I perfect enough to make him happy?'
'Do I deserve this?'
'Do I worth of this?'

Still questioned those... I wish I could read his mind and his heart..

Him❤

That evening I should take a boat for a way back home,
The queue is usually full and a grumble of people hanging up there, but not that day
The bides of fans, I could hear the swing of them
Sky looked so gorgeous as it was sunset,
Still orangish and reddish in color, I love it!
Just for eye candy currently
I saw you and your wide forehead where I used to kiss
I miss doing that so and I hope I could do that right now in the middle of a crowded place with nobody around
Your presence frankly made my day
The soul of childish in me, cheering up
You gave a passionate smile again and again
"How I can forget this beautiful smile? He's just too perfect for me.."
I'm in love.. obviously, I love him more than I love myself..

He held my hand and
"Let's get a boat, sweetheart "
I remember he still held tight all my fingers through his left palm
He never let me go
His hands getting sweaty but he still held mine tight
He's not so tall, barely the same as me,
So easy to capture all figures on his face
I love those pink plum light lips,
Remind of Kpop artists and I don't think I need them when I already have my Korean fav guy
In front of me,
"Can I just stare at him all my lifetime? "
and I told him " I hate you. "
Unexpectedly, he pinched my rounded cheeks
"I love you too, sweetheart..Ever" ❤

To be continued...

Kasihan..

Sakit hati aku takde sape kesah.. Punyalah aku nak jaga hati semua orang tapi last-last aku juga yg sakit.. Setiap rintihan orang aku dengar tapi masa aku nak luahkan, tiada seorang manusia pun peduli.. Kasihan~

Aku juga punya hati, luahan, keluhan, sikap perikemanusiaan, sifat lemah dan kuat walaupun tiada siapa peduli dan tahu. Kasihan~

Aku tak pernah minta untuk kekal bahagia tapi berilah aku rasa bahagia sebahagianya walaupun sekejap.. Aku tak pernah minta untuk kaya sekaya kayanya sebab aku tahu dengan wang, kasih sayang tu jadi murah sesangat.. Bukan kasih kerana akal dan budi tapi kasih kerana wang semata-mata.. Murah sangat cinta dan kasih tu kan?      :')

Akal tu dinilai melalui cara pemikiran, cara reaksi kita terhadap sesuatu dugaan/cabaran/nikmat.. Jika kemarahan yg kau pilih, maka musnah kebahagiaan itu.. Jika kesedihan yg kau pilih, maka menangislah kau sepuasnya.. Jika ketenangan yg kau minta, maka kau akan seronok apabila ditimpa ujian yg besar kerana masa tu kau akan lebih dekat dgn Tuhanmu,Allah SWT..

Engkau tahu Allah akan sentiasa bersama kau, kau gembira, kau sedih, Allah tetap ada jika kau sentiasa ingat padaNya masa susah senang kau.. Rasa kesal dalam hati tu kau boleh buang jauh, sebab kau yakin pada takdir dan aturan Allah.. Kan aturan Allah tu jauh lebih baik drpd aturan manusia.. Lupa ke?   :')

Tiada apa untuk dikesalkan,
Tiada apa untuk ditangisi,
Tiada apa untuk dimarahi,
Tiada apa untuk bahagia,
Melainkan kebahagiaan di 'sana' kelak..

Assalamualaikum..