Beautiful Creature




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28/12/2015..





People start asking 'Tirah, mana kau jumpa dia?'
'Tirah, macam mana kau kenal dia?'
'Tirah, kenapa kau pilih dia? Dia tu kan muda dari kau..'


So macam biasa mulut manusia tu memang tak boleh nak tutup, ikutkan hati dah lama aku stapler2kan mulut dorang tu.. Tapi takpe sebab aku suka sangat orang tanya mcm tu.. Soalan2 macam tu buat aku lagi rindu kat dia.. Rindu sangat..  :')  Since long distance relationship memang gitu lah jawabnya.. Saling merindu, saling bertanya khabar, saling bertukar cerita pasal diri masing2.. So it's different feeling ever.. So nak kenal tak siapa dia ni? Mestilah nak, kan? Siapa je tak nak kenal orang baru.. LETS GET INTO AKIF ALAUDDIN !! Haiyak!!~ hehehehe


Dia ni sebenarnya dah lama usya aku hahaha aku pun taktau.. Dari mula2 dia nampak aku, kononnya 'cinta pandang pertama' kekekeke.. entah betul entah tak.. Tapi aku keep going je sebab nak see the real game whether lose or win.. 

Akif..
He's gorgeous..
Everytime look into his eyes, feel like I'm flying through the sky and feel like my world stops..
We start counting stars but I choose him to stare at..
Such leaves, I pick and keep them safely in a jar.. Jyeahh, I found it's hard to throw them away seems I love it.. Love to smell, to feel, to hold it tight, to stare at, to watch the veins through it..
He's such incredible, wonderful, beautiful creature of entire life.. 
Special gift from Allah that want me to be strong as I feel down, want me to paint his life, want me to be grateful of what I have, want me to hold him tightly..
His cuddle like the moon and the sun, like the day and the night ; that will never be apart..

31/7 was the beginning ; his first sight on me
17/10 was getting know I have a guy that crush on me
25/10 was our first ever date and I remember that I was very happy for having him.. 
5/12 get enclosure when we ate the same plate, you picked out some for me and you said you start in love with my family.. yey !! 
I know you're happy when we are together, getting closer..
Knowing each other, asking what's your fav and what's mine..
We got lots of the same fav!

You're sincerely accept me for who I am and I don't want you change even once..
Keep playing League Of Legends and League Of Stickman 24/7 but still chatting with me, watching Memori Cinta Suraya and staring at me when I look so mess but keep saying that 'Awak cantiklah..Cantik sangat..' 

Babe, tak pernah tak buat sy blushing kan? Dari mula2 kenal sampailah sekarang tak lekang perangai tu dari awak.. Just wanna say there's no guy that I will love like I love you..

I love everything about you.. your smiles, your jokes, your sneeze, the way you eat, the way you treat kids, the way you look at me, the way you getting sulk.. Rasa macam nak sepak2 tau tak?? hahaha takpe saya masih sayang awak.. We are perfect together,sayang.. Just don't lose the hopes..ever.. I wanna go future with you, only you... forever.. Pls don't have somebody waiting on you.. Just me..



'Saya nak awak yang terakhir dalam hidup saya' 

I hope this could be the best ever love story in our life..
I hope our love will be last till a real marriage..

My Bby Akif πŸŽ•

Him..
Maybe I'm so lucky to have him πŸ˜„
For every flaws, he accepts me for who I am.
Every time I'm looking back to the pasts, I remember I couldn't make him two because he is the only guy who love me for whole of his heart, take care of me, hold me tight when I'm nuts, never leave me, laugh over my stupid jokes(sometimes), be serious to me when I'm not in serious(always), he always think wisely about everything..like EVERYTHING..

I never feel this way, I really love him.. I love him more than anyone ever know..More than he knows :) Over years and years, we already grown up.. already 2years8months in long distance relationship with Akif..
And I guess people just saying of our bad sides to leave each others but we cannot. We just cannot.
He knows myself more than me, He knows me more than my family know me.
He like always, he makes me really into him😍

So just nak share hari tu (24/5/2018), Akif visit me and my family !! A week before dia tekad beli tiket bas ke Seremban.. Macam tak percaya dia nak datang sini mase tu. I was so excited wehhh.. Excited sebab rindu kan.. lama tak dpt jumpa.. Btw, dia datang sini tu mase begin cuti sem dia. Cuti sebulan kan.. so dia decided nak visit me.. YEAYY


*tengok ni excited betul dia siap buat story ig lagi πŸ˜‚ :


Tahun lepas Tyra berpuasa di johor dengan dia n family dia, so tahun ni Akif pula berpuasa di nismilan with my family 😊 Pegi terawih same2, kebetulan masa Akif datang tu MB nismilan yang baru pun datang surau. Bak kata Akif dia mcm langkah kanan lah. biasa lah Akif ni poyo nye tak sudah πŸ˜‚ walaupun kita jumpa sekejap tapi sangat2 bermakna untuk Tyra.
Esoknya, kami balik johor pulak.
Haa mase kat johor ni tak pernah tak best tau , kiteorg dok merayap kat bazar ramadhan kat sane hahahahaha. bazar kat sane best sangat2. Haih ape je yang tak best kat johor ni? Tell me. I bet semuanya best2πŸ™† Macam2 ade wehhhh. Makanan yang orang nogori ni tak pernah makan pun ade. 

So here, some pics as momento mase kiteorang jumpa :



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Thats all for our last time dating ke meet eh hahaahhaha πŸ’‘
Rindu lah wehhhhh 😭 Entah bila nya dapat jumpa lagi kan? 
Akif sayang, jaga diri baik2 ye kat sana. Semoga awak bahagia selalu . Perasaan rindu kat awak ni tak mungkin akan padam sampai bila2, awak selalu buat sy tersenyum,gelak2, geli hati. yang paling penting, awak sentiasa memahami sy walaupun kita selalu gaduh sebab family .. Senyuman awak benda yang selalu sy ketagih nak tenung, lawak awak selalu buat sy geli hati, manja awak haih tak payah cakaplah lagi2 kalau tengah sakit.. Jaga diri selalu ye. Belajar rajin2 tau, sy nak datang tengok awak graduate nanti πŸ˜„πŸ™Œ Maafkan sy sebab selalu membebel kat awak, marah2 awak tak tentu pasal, maafkan sy sebab sy tak boleh berhenti rindukan awak.😿 Kalau boleh jangan lah merajuk selalu.. sy ni kejap je dah rindu awak.. hehehhehe okaylah ni. got to go ~
AssalamualaikumπŸ’•

Hell-ish


Literally, ppl would say that "Home Sweet Home", but for me......
My absence wouldn't distract anyone and nobody cares.
My presence like nothing..
Nobody would care about me.. 
Isn't it not fair for your youngest sibs to get mad? Why I can't be angry?
I have monster inside of me too. I have too. I don't even ask for many things, and why I can't get what I want to?
Question marked is everywhere. Like, I don't even cannot make my own choices.
Hey, I have passion too. I have souls and feelings too.
Dear everyone, I hope u guys know that I have feelings too..


Thank you for not listening to me,
Thank you for not care abt me,
Thank you for not give me freedom,
Thank you for caged me in hell,
Thank you for bad things you guys did to me (I might forgave you but I won't forget forever)
Thank you for make me hate myself,
Thank you for every good things u have done for me.

THANK YOU