Got Engaged!

In middle Nov 2023, he came with his family and ofcourse the ring !

الحمد لله

Anggaran habis untuk majlis pertunangan dalam RM2,000. Nvm, yang penting moment tu akan sentiasa ada dalam ingatan dengan cara yang baik. Semoga kita sama-sama dapat tempuh alam pertunangan ni dengan baik dan dalam redaNya ❤

Terima kasih pada ummi ayah & adik beradik yang banyak bantu dan beri sumbangan. Big thanks to my friends, Jimba for helping on that day. Dorang banyak siapkan aku hahahahah plussss kudos to tihah as photographer yang snap banyak gambar cantik2 😍

Overall,

We finally got engaged.. The countdown starts now..

Mid August ? EH

Rasa macam lama sangat tak menulis kat sini.. Been hiatus for few months, but not really hiatus sebab still online other media social.. Saja tulis sini sebab rasa macam nak meluahkan tapi rasa sedih bila terbaca post2 yang lama. hahahaha kisah yang lama

Tak patut pun simpan lagi. Gonna delete soon :)

Sejujurnya, kita manusia biasa takkan dapat melupakan perkara2 yang terjadi dalam hidup kita tapi kita boleh cuba untuk terima dan memaafkan. Nak bukak buku baru memang tak mudah lagi2 bila ada trust issues for few things tapi kena bukak jugak hahahha orang kata demi kelangsungan hidup 😂😂

Banyak perkara yang berlaku, banyak perkara buat aku trauma, buat aku benci, buat aku marah pada diri sendiri. Jujur aku banyak salahkan diri aku dan takdir. Tapi setiap kali tu, aku mohon ampun dari Allah sebab aku ni jahil dan hina sebab aku banyak salahkan diri dan takdir.

Sekarang, hidup taklah mudah tapi aku tenang. Mungkin ni doa2 yang aku pernah panjatkan dan berkat doa2 dari ummi ayah aku. Aku lebih bahagia sekarang, banyak buat hal sendiri daripada aku yang dulu yang byk fikir tentang perasaan dan hati orang je. Dulu banyak makan hati hahahah sekarang pun sama cuma da kurang sikit. Takpe slow2 orang kata. Take it slow and steady😊

Aku jumpa someone yang pada aku, dia ni cute, soft spoken sangat2, baik orangnya, tak pernah marah aku, suka senyum.. Awal2 tak expect pun suka kat dia hahahaha since masa tu masing2 tengah serious je. 

Siap berlagak dengan sv ; dia ada ckp " Ha kau nanti jangan bercinta lak dengan dia tu"

Aku dengan berlagaknya ckp " Eh taknak lah saya, dah ada dah yang ni" sambil tunjuk wallpaper laptop gambar dengan someone.

Tapi takdir Allah kan lebih cantik? aku reda dan terima hakikat yang aku dengan someone tu memang tak ada jodoh. 

Banyak kali juga aku menidakkan perasaan aku tapi lama2 makin kuat, ye betul aku suka dia tapi secara diam2 je

Masalahnya obvious 😂😂😂😂

Him 4 ❤

I slowly blinked my eyelids and the light rays through my cornea. 

I could see the shiny sun and its warmer heat over my body

But yeah, it felt so weird,

My feet felt kind of sandy and my flowy flower dress was sticky between its weaving of threads

Some bulks of luggage float over the water and the clothes and things are overwhelmed in the water

My chest suffocated and my trachea felt water fills my lungs

Breath over breath but yet still pain

As I tried my best to inhale oxygen, the pressure pressed on my chest 

Slowly I tried to get up and inhale,

Much better but it still hurts,

Dried throat, whole of my skin felt irritated,

Did I still alive?

That's a terrible event,

A traumatic experience for a one-to-face,

One thing popped into my mind: Where's he?

What if he cannot make it?

I stared at the blueish sky with fluffy grey clouds floating,

The rainy sky kept pouring down on this unknown beach

I astounded 

What exactly happened for the past few minutes

Ah! My head started to spin around

An hour past hour, I guessed

Nobody came around and stranded here with me

Only me and myself

A droplet by droplet from my eyelid dripped and overwhelm my face

My mind messed up, my voice started trembling

Is it  tr       ue   th   that he is go     gone?? 

Tears over tears, scream over scream

How could God take everything from me

I lost him

I lost my life

Irritated skin hurts me since the rain won't stop for hours 

There's blood on my ankle

Perhaps cut from a sharp object during the wave event

Hope it's not a serious injury

I tried close my eyes and bare with the pain,

After a while,

I could see a man standing on a cliff not far from me

Wanted to scream my heart out but nothing came out, only tears

Did he look for me too?

To be continued..